So we have all had those classic anxiety dreams in our lives – you know the ones, where you are trying to get to an important exam or meeting and just can’t manage to get there OK. If you are an actor you may be familiar with the dream about going on stage and not being able to remember your lines or what you are supposed to do. Well for this show I have been having weird dreams about smoking. Yes, really.
If you read my first blog post you will be aware of our dilemma for smoking onstage in this production and it has clearly been preying on my subconscious mind as I have been having dreams recently about taking up smoking for the play and really enjoying it. Enjoying it to the point of carrying on afterwards and then having to fund my new habit and hide it from my family.
Now I am not a smoker and I do not like the smell of smoke or anything about it so I don’t know why my subconscious thinks this could happen – but it is making my conscious mind worry about it even more (aren’t dreams supposed to sort out those worries for your conscious mind?). Ros, our SM has ordered some stage cigarettes and we are waiting for them to arrive – meanwhile we are rehearsing with real cigarettes (or pencils) and I am trying not to think about it.
I don’t want the nicotine hit from e-cigarettes and I definitely don’t want the tobacco & nicotine double whammy from cigarettes so let’s hope the stage ones are effective enough. They should arrive in the post this week so I’ll let you know how we get on.